I recently broke up with my girlfriend of two years. I had a ring and everything...
I broke up with her because my aunt, who is like a mother to me, has been there with me in everything I have ever done/been through in my life...She knows Im gay, and has known for a while now.
I guess when my mom told her about the ring it really hit home, like OMG she is really going to be with a girl her whole life..so long story short she told me she would not be able to attend, and that she didnt think her grandsons. (mind you they are like my nephews) also shouldnt be apart of this..This hurt me worse than I have ever been hurt before. So first I did a lot of thinking and havent been the same since that conversation..
I broke up with my gf stating that I should turn away from this lifestyle because I do not want to go to hell, I told her I love her, but I just couldnt be with her like this anymore.
weeks have went by and I have done a lot of thinking...
I still think about her all the time, and love her, so by me still feel like this does that mean I will still go to hell? I dont know, but i do know i love her, im just scared to because I do not want to go to hell,
I have had these thoughts in the past, and prayed, and God comforted me, but this time i guess im older and idk, but i wish I knew for a fact that being gay wouldnt send me to hell.]
I believe that I could potentially marry a man, have a family and be happy, if thats what i need to do, I just dont know what the right answer is. Its like im in a battle with myself, and both sides have valid points, i just dont know what do to.