Battle with myself?

I recently broke up with my girlfriend of two years. I had a ring and everything...

I broke up with her because my aunt, who is like a mother to me, has been there with me in everything I have ever done/been through in my life...She knows Im gay, and has known for a while now. 

I guess when my mom told her about the ring it really hit home, like OMG she is really going to be with a girl her whole life..so long story short she told me she would not be able to attend, and that she didnt think her grandsons. (mind you they are like my nephews) also shouldnt be apart of this..This hurt me worse than I have ever been hurt before. So first I did a lot of thinking and havent been the same since that conversation..

I broke up with my gf stating that I should turn away from this lifestyle because I do not want to go to hell, I told her I love her, but I just couldnt be with her like this anymore.

weeks have went by and I have done a lot of thinking...

I still think about her all the time, and love her, so by me still feel like this does that mean I will still go to hell? I dont know, but i do know i love her, im just scared to because I do not want to go to hell,

 

I have had these thoughts in the past, and prayed, and God comforted me, but this time i guess im older and idk, but i wish I knew for a fact that being gay wouldnt send me to hell.]

I believe that I could potentially marry a man, have a family and be happy, if thats what i need to do, I just dont know what the right answer is. Its like im in a battle with myself, and both sides have valid points, i just dont know what do to.

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Comments (5)

  1. mylifemytime

    No mater what you chose God will be with you and love you. No one is perfect and there is no right answer. Take your time 2 years is not that long when you are talking about a life time. God can see that you are struggling and he knows that you are trying your hardest to do the right thing. Just keep doing what you are doing and he just might give you a sign. He loves you!

    February 01, 2016
  2. GoldenPig2012

    I’m not gay, but, I’m a Christian. I honestly don’t the answer for you, but, I will say this: Christians, just fine and damn upstanding people……….lie, cheat, steal, you name it, they do it and………..here’s the kicker…………some do it over and over and over again just fucking sure they are awesome and forgiven and going straight to streets paved with gold. So, you love one person, you want to ask that person if you can each make a lifelong commitment to each other out of love. So…………….if doing anything other than this is not YOU, just the beginning of a lie that lasts a long time…………….go with love.

    God loves us. He KNOWS us. He KNOWS all the facts that we consider mysteries. Is homosexuality “right”, according to the Bible? No. But, neither is being a lying, hating, cheating asshole and people do THAT all the time with no qualms.

    This is yours, not ours, not your mom’s, not your sibling’s, just yours, babe. You look inside yourself, decide if you are true and truly THIS and…………………..do what you do. I know you don’t want to hurt others, but, sweetie, the truth is………………….living our lives for someone else’s pleasure or happiness or satisfaction leads to more hurt and anger and pain than you can imagine.

    February 01, 2016
  3. crimsonglory

    I guess the only person who can answer that question is God himself. Tough situation, to say the least. No doubt you’ll get a lot of opinions on here, but ultimately that’s a question you need to iron out with the Big Guy. People have convictions for a reason. Some listen to them, some choose to ignore. Ultimately, what are YOUR convictions regarding the matter? Will you listen to them, or will you ignore them?

    February 03, 2016
  4. JumperK

    There is no hell.

    February 05, 2016